x La0 GaYz x

Monday, November 20, 2006

badly scarred. i know this is gonna happen. dead since 20nov.

not gonna have another girl in my heart anymore because i dunt have
a heart anymore. altho the lock wasnt forced open, everything inside
broke into a million piesces.

im lost. im really lost. i lost direction in life. i dont know what
to do anymore. i have no aim or goal. i am a living dead.
right now im just walking aimlessly circling my room.
i dont know what im doing. i only know something, something
worse than the sharpes blade on earth has cut thru the lock, destroying
the soul and the heart. what shall i do now. cant stop raining for a sec

gone. its gone. 20nov2006 marks the day of my death. all is gone,
never coming back.

everytime my heart broke, someone is always there to fix it back
no matter how many piesces it broke into. but right now im left
on my own with uncountable piesces of my heart. i cant fix it back,
cant now, never will.

ran in the rain today. was wet thoroughly. bt i nv knew that few hours
later, it would rain much worse deep inside me. i have no idea why.
i dont know why this hit me so bad. i tot i was prepared. i tot i could
part. why. why do i have to go through this again. but this time its the
worst i ever had. and i think its gonna be the worst in my life. gone.
everything

i cant sleep at all. my parents keep knocking on my door. cant i even
have some time to rain. whats going on with my life. how come one
moment i felt as if im on cloud nine, and the other i dropped
into hell. burning hell. i dont know why at all. what did i do to deserve
this.

i dont know how are u feeling now. i dont dare to talk to u cause it would bring
more rain. but i cant stand the loneliness. my life is fucked up.

i feel so alone. other than my buddies, there isnt anyone else. i dont know what i can do
now. i hope someone would just hit my head n make me forget everything that
happened.

all the things we done, talked about and all those memories. am i supposed to remove

them just like that?

i dont know anything apart from being numb. in my eyes u see sadness and hatred.

in my blood u feel my rage. bt i am dead living.

all emotions does not have any difference to me. there is only 1 emotion

which is sadness. thats all. being forced to forget everything, isnt it painful?

songs > deng dai by chen yi > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MaJoomqZ1iY

shan hu hai by jay and lara > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=imqbKB5iYqM

cai hong tian tang by liu gen hong > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dy8Wx_qMci4

feng by jay > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fV7FM655SyQ >KTV version

mtv> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIPx0RjDM1I

shou fang kai > lee sheng jie > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-J60Vw_668

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